Letting Go

it has been months since i last posted a blog. i got too busy with work, was sick for few weeks, and went home for 5 days to attend my sister's graduation. anyways, enough of that.

i was cleaning my yahoo email account when i read an email my sister sent which has my old poems. ok, to give you a brief background, i was into writing poems since i was 10 or 11 years old until college. after college, i somehow lost the "talent".

i would like to share this one particular poem because i am in the process of letting go of someone. i wrote this back in July of 2000. and to be honest, at the time i wrote this, i just imagined the situation and wanted to somehow capture the pain. hope you'll like it. feel free to drop a comment. cheers.

Letting Go

The lightest touch
The saddest smile
The gentlest kiss
... it's been a while

Here in your arms
Me holding you tight
Keeping you close
In the still of the night

You looked at me
You touched my cheek
You held my hand
... to scared to speak

Closing my eyes
Not wanting to cry
You let go of my hand
And you whispered goodbye.

Just Moved In

I moved in to my new "home" yesterday. I must tell you, I hate moving to a new place. It's just too tiring and stressful for me. I know I have moved around a lot but I haven't gotten used to it. I hate it everytime.

Hate aside (hate IS a strong word so I promise not to use it too often), I like my new room. It's smaller than the previous one but I feel at home here. I feel more relaxed. Plus, I have my own small tv! yay! I also have my own bathroom so I'm feeling blessed. Have I mentioned before that the pool is right outside the condo unit?=)

I managed to arrange most of my stuff.The others... well I just placed them in the boxes while I think of a way to get rid of them. I didn't know I had this many odd things.

Anyways, I took a couple of pics of how messy my room was yesterday.

I'm happy to say the room looks better now ;)

Cheers!

Flatmates

Currently, I have 6 flatmates: one is an old friend from Manila and the rest are the people we met when we arrived here in Singapore and stayed in a hostel for a few months. We had so much fun and we were there for each other during those first few difficult months. We all bonded that we decided to rent a flat for ourselves and share the expenses. This made sense that time. More privacy and less expenses. First month went smoothly. We were like a family. But then, sooner than we thought, things changed.

I started hearing complaints here and there that so and so is so inconsiderate, insensitive, etc. It would have been manageable (I think) but then some can't pay the rent on time and then something really bad happened which destroyed the trust we have for each other. It was all too much to bear already. It got me thinking. Why do I care so much of these people who only cares about themselves? Why should I care when I've only known them for a few months? What do I really know about them?

So I decided to be on my own for a change. Focus on myself first. I have no one here. I'm the only one who can take care of myself. This time, it's all about me. It's about time I think.

I'm moving out this Saturday. I've rented a room in one of the condos in the west coast. Love the place. I'll show you some pics next time.

So here's to going solo and having fun ;)

Cheers!

After 6 Months

It has been around 6 months since my first post. I decided to give you an update of how my life is (so far) living in a foreign country.

I'm lucky enough to have a great job. I like my boss (for a change) and I'm quite close with my colleagues. I currently share a flat with some of my friends here but I'm moving out in the next couple of weeks.

I'm beginning to fall in love with this place. It's quiet, clean, and everybody's disciplined. I like clubbing here because I get to observe new things that would surprise my conservative (yes, CONSERVATIVE) self. What are those things... well I would suggest you come and see for yourself. It's fun around here when you go out at night. If you don't like the club scene, you can always go to Starbucks for a quiet evening with a cup of coffee. Too bad though, I have yet to see one that opens 24 hours.

The year just started so I'm looking forward to a great new year. I wonder what's in store for me. Can't wait =)

Oh.. one more thing, I changed my hairstyle. My sister posted our new pics in her own blog. Check it out if you want.

Cheers!

night before sg

i'm leaving for singapore tomorrow night. i don't know what's really in store for me there aside from a new job. been thinking if moving there was a good choice or will i be happy there. my friends told me to think positive and i am doing just that. it is going to be a new adventure for me. i am really excited and a bit scared at the same time. but i can handle this. i'll manage.

y not give this a try?

i'm finally doing this. i don't know how she did it but my sister finally got me to create my own blog. since i'm a newbie at blogging, and the fact that i know nothing of the technicalities behind blogging, i'll look around first and get back to you as soon as i can.